Words Appear In My Mind

The words appear in my mind -->

I don't have qualifications to be in love
我没有资格谈恋爱

I don't have qualifications to love you
我没有资格爱上你

I don't have the ability to make u love me
我没有本事让你爱上我

I will be walking alone all the way with my life to the endless road
我自己一个度过漫长的路程

Welcome to the day of my approaching death
迎接我死亡来临的未来


I will be going back to Singapore on coming monday,
cause there is some problem
with the web designing, so have to go back and
check and settle it, maybe i will be staying
there for a week or maybe long. I cant reject
them for asking me back for help, so i have to
go Singapore. There is something i cant let
go here is KY. In this week, we always hang
around together, have lunch after class,
bring her back home, do revison for her study
at somewhere around and talk on de phone
everynight...errmm.. this will be memories of me.
Hope our relation wont be worst after never meet
each other for few week. Since there
is only left 3 days for me, i will treasure
this memorable 3days while i was in Malaysia.

Enjoyable Day

Enjoyable Day

Such a enjoyable today i have,went out with KY
after her college at Utar around 12.30pm
First,we went to ss2 have our lunch at ramen
noodles restaurant, ermm..the noodles i order
dont really taste nice for me, she ask me to try
her one..but i never try in de end lolx..
I order a ying&yang coffee, and she order a
drink with purple colour and a lemon ontop
i dunno what drink is that haha...

After finish our ramen noodles, we went to
1utama, walk around and meet my friend meikuan
to have a chat at her shop, and we have drink
at the back restaurent of her shop, chat around
laugh and laugh until 4.30pm is time to say bye.

I accompany KY back home,first we take putra
LRT to Masjid Jamek from Taman Bahagian station,
after we reach Masjid Jamek we take the
subway to the Star LRT and take the train to
Cahaya Station, actually we suppose to stop
at Cahaya station before Ampang the terminal
station, but the train stop not the right side
for her and she is lazy to cross the road to back home,
so she decide to wait for the train turn back
from de last station and stop the right side for her haha...
After we came out from the train i walk
her back home and i go back myself.
While we are in the train she keep on disturbing me,
cos i told her this is the first time i take
Star LRT and i scare i lost the way to back home lol...
So she keep on say that ' u better dont
lost your way to back home oh, later i cant
help you be careful oh wuahahaha ' haha..she is so cute lol...
but in de end i still reach home safetly haha..

Such a wonderful day.... smile *wink*

A Joke ' A Polite way to go pee '

A Joke ' A Polite way to go pee '

Yesterday get a called from my friend,she told me that she very sad
wan me to tell jokes to her or sing a song,but I'm also kind of people that dont
really know how to tell jokes,so i went to yahoo.com search
for some jokes lolx!! shh......and i saw this, is kind of funny buy a little bit dirty lolx!! In de end she ask me to sing a song to her, but my singing is bad, really dunno know how to make her smile, but after few hour conversation she feel better,so i can take a deep breath....Atlease i know she feel better i'm happy too!!

Here is the jokes ' A polite way to go pee '



A little word from Johnny to start the day..

During one of her daily classes a teacher trying
to teach good manners, asked her students the following question:

"Michael, if you were on a date having dinner
with a nice young lady, how would you tell her
that you have to go to the bathroom?"

Michael said, "Just a minute I have to go pee."

The teacher responded by saying,
"That would be rude and impolite.

What about you Peter, how would you say it?"
Peter said, "I am sorry, but I really need
to go to the bathroom. I'll be right back."

"That's better, but it's still not very nice to
say the word bathroom at the dinner table

And you, little Johnny, can you use your brain
for once and show Us your good manners?"

I would say: "Darling, may I please be excused for a moment?
I have to shake hands with a very dear friend of mine,
whom I hope you'll get to meet after dinner."

The teacher fainted.

Miss my secondary

Yesterday slept at 10pm this is the first time i slept so early lolx..
but wake up at 2am, dunno why haha..than went to online..at that time
really not much people online, just search around the website, listen to music
and look back to my old photo. I saw my secondary school photo really miss
my school life lolx..but form 5 class gathering is coming soon,will
be on next month or july, so feel so excited the day coming. I remenber
i was chating with Howming about our gathering things, i told him
why not this year gathering all wear back our secondary school uniform
than he say this to me " You Wear YourSelf " lolx

Here is some my form5 class picture and last year gathering picture

Top Guys In Form5k ( 2004 )
From left down ' Desmon, Jinkit, TattMun, KenYap, Me, Howmin
Daniel And KokLeong '

3 Naughty Guys And 1 Good And Clever
Girl (2004 ) From left ' Jinkit, KenYap(My Brother In School ), MeiYii And Me '

Whole Form5k (2004 )

Girl taking picture but i join them :p (2004 )

Form5k Top Guys And Gals ( 2004 )
From front left ' SengChung, daniel, JinJi, Me, YuehSin, Kokleong
KahHee, Keechung, WeiYeng, Laiyee, Howmin And
GinSing '

Last year gathering ( 2006 ) JJ,Me And GSing
'JJ my only friend in school works,sometime lazy to do copy his one lo
haha'

Gathering ( 2006 ) Me And 66
' Me And 66(YuehSin) used to call each other 66 as our nickname
How 66 this name name came from?? Is because my number in taking
Spm is number 66, so she start to call me this nick name Lolx '


Gathering ( 2006 ) 66,Howmin,jasmine and Me
' Howming i only bestfriend in talking shit around,always share
our secret lol..!! Jasmine our class
drama queen hehe'

Special

Hmm..today will be my special day, went out with a special person in my life
went mid valley, actually we wanna have a movie,but all the movie on show not in the right time we wan,so we decide to go have a drink, we went to KFC lolx, and we chat about an hour plus at KFC..really feel so happy and enjoy de day we had today: ) after all of this we went back home de!!

Just now i went a walk outside my house, cos just finish my dinner,very full!!
Walk and walk..i didnt know that i have already walk until outside my house the nearest makmak stall lolx..i saw my master so we have a drink and snooker 1 set game, Wow i won my master hehe..but i know he giving me chance, so he have to pay for the game and the drinks lolx..after the game and drinks i went back home de and start online until now!!

24 of may is my friend 'Desmond and Dennis' birthday, there and twins brother, we are going to have a birthday dinner on 23 of may night, and hang until 12am for thier birthday haha.

In a mood

Early in de morning 10am,woke up by my mom
cos she bought me something to eat
something funny is my mom was at home too,but why she
wanna call me and woke me up but she dont
wanna come to my room lolx..
maybe she is lazy to walk!!...lolx.
Actually today she cook at home!! But she
doesnt cook my fravorite food,
so she went outside bought lunch for me, hehe so sweet....

Around 7.30pm friend called me out for dinner,
after finish, he pay for my dinner hehe...
He told me that later snooker loser pay,
so we went to play some
game, but in de end he lost to me again,
so he have to pay again haha


2.00am another friend 'Thong' called me
out have a drink.. After the drink,
we went snooker again ar..I gonna crazy
soon always snooker..until 4.00am we
went back home.

Illusion

Just came back from snooker centre,dunno why
cant really play, dont have the mood to play
always miss...

Today siting down in front of my piano,try to play a song
but cant do it,something keep disturbing my mind
dont really know what happen to me,cant do anything today.

Failed with everything, what happen to me,i cant understand it
i wish i'm happy always but there is something always make me cant!!
people around me,always ask me" why are u so quite,dont really talk"
actually I'm very talkertive person, is because u dont really know me!
I hope tomorrow will be better

Lyrics written by yoshiki

Art of life

Desert Rose, why do you live alone?
If you are sad, I'll make you leave this life.
Are you white, blue or bloody red?
All I can see is drowning in cold grey sand.

The winds of time, you knock me to the ground.
I'm dying of thirst, I wanna run away
don't know how to set me free to live.
My mind cries out feeling pain.

I've been roaming to find myself
How long have I been feeling endless hurt
Falling down, rain flows into my heart.
In the pain, I'm waiting for you.
Can't go back, no place to go back to.
Life is lost, flowers fall, if it's a dream, now wake me up.
If it's for real, just kill me.

I'm making the wall inside my heart.
I don't wanna let my emotions get out.
It scares me to look at the world.
Don't wanna find myself lost in your eyes.
I tried to drown my past in grey.
I never wanna feel more pain.
Run away from you without saying any words.
What I don't wanna lose is love.

Through my eyes time goes by like tears.
My emotions losing the colour of life.
Kill my heart, release all my pain, I'm shouting out loud.
Insanity takes hold of me...

Turning away from the wall I can see nothing.
The scream deep inside, reflecting another person in my heart.
All existence you see before you must be wiped out.
Dream, reality, memories, and yourself.

I begin to lose control of myself
My lust is so blind, destroys my mind.
Nobody can stop my turning to madness.
No matter how you try to hold me in your heart.
Why do you wanna raise these walls?
I don't know the meaning of hatred.
My brain gets blown away hearing words of lies.
I only want to hold your love.

Stab the dolls of hate.
Wash yourself with their blood.
Drive into the raging current of time.
Swing your murderous weapon into the belly. "The earth."
Shout and start creating confusion,
shed your blood for pleasure. And what?
For love? What am I supposed to do?

I believe in the madness called "now".
Past and future prison my heart.
Time is blind, but I wanna trace my love,
on the walls of time over pain in my heart.
Art of life.
Insane blade stabbing dreams.
Try to break all truth now.
But I can't heal this broken heart in pain.
Cannot start to live,
cannot end my life,
keep on crying.

Close my eyes, time breathes, I hear.
All love and sadness melt in my heart.

Dry my tears, wipe my bloody face.
I wanna feel me living outside my walls.

You can't draw a picture of yesterday so you're painting your heart with your blood.
You can't say no, only turning the wheel of time with a rope around your neck.
You build a wall of morality and take a breath from between the bricks.
You make up imaginary enemies and are chased by them.
You're trying to commit suicide.
You're satisfied with your prologue, now you're painting your first chapter black.
You are putting the scraps of your life together and trying to make an asylum for yourself.
You're hitting a hell at the edge of the stage and you are trying to kill me.

I believe in the madness called "now".
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself.
Still, I haven't found what I'm looking for.
Art Of Life
I try and stop myself but my heart goes to destroy the truth. Tell me why, I want the meaning of my life.
Do I try to live?
Do I try to love?
In my dream...

I'm breaking the wall inside my heart.
I just wanna let my emotions get out.
Nobody can stop, I'm running to freedom, no matter how you try to hold me in your world.

Like a doll carried by the wall of time.
I sacrificed the present moment for the future.
I was in the chains of memory half blinded.
Losing my heart walking in the sea of dreams.

Close my eyes, rose breathes, I can hear,
All love and sadness melt in my heart.
Dry my tears, wipe my bloody face.
I wanna feel me living my life, outside my mind.

Dreams can make me mad.
I can't leave my dream, I can't stop myself
Don't know what I am, what lies are truth?
What truths are lies?

I believe in the madness called "now".
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself
Still, I haven't found what I'm looking for.

Art Of Life.
I try and stop myself but my heart goes to destroy the truth.
Tell me why, I want the meaning of my life.
Do I try to live? Do I try to love?

Art of life.
An eternal bleeding heart, you never wanna breathe your last.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself
Still I'm feeling for
A rose is breathing love, in my life...